All I wish was that everything will be as good or maybe as fun as last year. This year is just like a test for me, a test of being alone which is torturing and boring.
Well, I guess I need to move on and forget everything that making so fatigued and restless everyday. Even I slept for 12 hours, I am still tired. I guess my mind still kind of moving while I'm cause I have been dreaming the same person every now and then.
She is stuck in my head.
I don't know what to talk about if we meet again.
I guess time will heals everything.
I miss talking to her a lot, those laughter that we use to had and non stop talks. Now? non.. just cold and dead conversation we have for this 1 to 2 months.
I dreaded of msg-ing her too, cause is like super COLD and BORING kind.
It's kind of pain in heart, which makes me that I have lost a friend that I can really talk to without any doubt. But now, I think I just have to keep it to myself.
Talk to friends? I wont really like to talk to friends about emotion stuff, cause they might share around with others, and will keep asking me 'Are you okay?' all this stuff. I know it good to share it to your friends but I just prefer the lesser people know the better.
I want to keep it for myself for now. I'm so sorry, that I'm not really to myself this few weeks.