Sigh... 5th of March, it's someone really special, and I love her a lot birthday. If she is still alive now, she will be 51 now. I still remembered her 50th birthday. I celebrated it with her at grandma's place, and i bought a cake. Somehow I was there to celebrate her last birthday, if not I will miss this happy moment with my mum that time.

As the usual birthday everyone has, sing birthday songs, made a wish and blew the candles. But I know that she was very happy on that day. =)
I was wondering what was her wish that she made. Maybe she wished that she is able to cross over this illness and able to her to her usual life.
Every checkup she had to poke with needles and scanning, which was really very tough for her.

Sigh..or she worried about us, about our studies and etc. I'm glad that daniel is able to make it to the polytechnic. My mum will be very happy when she knew about it. I think she knew it, she somewhere near us, but we neither can see non hear her. =(

I make a promise with her. But I'm still struggling with this promise. She wanted me to get in to the university. Well.. I'm trying to fight my very best for a place in this high competitive IT industry.

Seriously, my studies was not really good. But at least better compared to my secondary school results, which was horrible. Every thing fail fail fail. Pure sciences fail, A maths fail, English got some help by my teacher, which made me managed to pass and promoted to Secondary 4.

Getting to a university right now, you need at least a GPQ 3.5 or 3.6, but i only got 3.2.

Everyday in my life is just gloominess and gloominess. until i know her........